The lights of the inn are glowing in solitude. Outside the
light the night is pitch-dark. The silhouette of the mountain has completely merged into the darkness, but its massive presence still looms, surrounding and pushing against us. One gets a warm yet smothered feeling, like being hugged by an adult in one’s childhood. When all my fellow hikers have finally gathered, somebody shouts,
“Let’s go to the waterfall!”
We then step into the night in twos and threes. The color of
the sky shows no sign of daybreak; the night is definitely not
over yet. Since we cannot see any starlight, there is probably
some light cloud above. We struggle to make out the sinuous
mountain road, even though it has been developed into a thoroughfare open to motor vehicles. Probably feeling uneasy about
the isolation brought by the darkness, people in the group start to
engage in small talk with each other. We are like a fleet of vessels
navigating the ocean in the night, flashing signal lights back
and forth to confirm each other’s existence. I put my hands in
the jacket pockets and stride ahead quietly, letting my hair and
face feel the early-autumn coolness of the mountain in this summer
night. Silence like this is rather an enjoyment, considering
the tumultuous and noisy life we experience everyday.
“Somebody keeps a bunch of dogs around the corner ahead.
I don’t want to be the one walking in the front!” says the female
student who has volunteered to be our guide. I quicken my steps
spontaneously and take the forefront position before knowing it.
A barrage of barking is followed by a couple of dogs dashing
out of a hillside hut which looks like a work-shed. After they
make their rounds of barking and sniffing at us, we finally
regain the tranquility of the dark night. Perhaps delayed by fear
of the dogs or immersed too much in conversations, my hikingmates
seem to lag further and further behind and the murmur of
their voices eventually fades away. I continue walking ahead in
silence, feeling the whole mountain and the entire night sweeping
through my existence, and gradually brushing by like a gentle
breeze. Can this be considered some kind of “mountain
bathing” or “night bathing”? I do seem to feel cleansed and
renewed. After the mind quiets down, except for the rhythm of
the strides, my whole being seems to also enter a vacant mental
state, utterly devoid of any thought. Is this the reason why
Buddhist monks include “walking thousands of miles” in their
practice to achieve enlightenment?
The sky gradually turns white. In the shrouding mist, the
shapes of the mountains and the edges of the trees slowly appear like sculptural relief, jutting out from all sides. They seem intangible,
yet the protrusions look very distinct and clear, containing
intricate details within the integral whole. We seem to be climbing
up and down in a multi-story grand palace with rich carvings
and decorations everywhere. One building stands behind another,
and they are all interconnected by corridors. The undulating
mountain ridge has no end, and interlocking bushes and trees
stretch on and on. Yet, as the road goes further and further down,
there seems to be an exit at the bend. I find myself unexpectedly
facing a bluish open sky. The long stretching road leads us out of
the encircling mountain range and into a long and narrow valley.
Although still nestling in the hills, it provides the luxury of some
openness, almost like walking into a backyard garden amidst the
palaces. Yet, it is not really a garden but a piece of desolate
grassland interspersed with occasional small trees. Looking
towards the valley, I stand still waiting for my fellow hikers, left
far behind. Do I feel lonely? No! The light-colored sky covering
the valley like a goose-down duvet also covers me.
As the mountain road winds down to the valley, it makes a
turn and intersects with another road. A sign is placed at one end
of the crossroads pointing in the direction of the waterfall. Yet
oddly enough, across from the sign, beside the lonely stretching
road in the quiet wilderness, there is a vending machine with a
supply of drinks standing alone like a quiet caretaker guarding
the valley—a caretaker with a spirit of development and commercialism,
perhaps? Should I admire this vending machine on
the mountain as Wallace Stevens has done with the jar he placed
on a hill in Tennessee, imagining how the wilderness rose up
and sprawled around in total submission before it? Against the
dim light of the dawn, the multi-colored sign and bulbs are still
lit. It stands upright like a slot machine, ready to serve customers like a modern 24-hour convenience store, . . . .
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